motivation

well its been a while since i used this thing. last week has been comprised of sore muscles and feeling oddly relaxed.

cant wait for tonight

velocity without direction is just wasted energy

im going slowly more insane with each passing day.

i need a release.

physical activity doesnt work. i need to take out my rage on someone.

Erebus

we are the wolves that make you fear the dark.
you are the humans that make us fear the day.
hostile to all...
all but our own.

a realisation is a bastard of a thing.
sleeping with the enemy for so long, how could i not realise it till now.
fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.

i can feel myself slipping into old, familiar ways. for a few months there i was getting better but now its creeping back. probably just the fucked up sleep habits due to not having a job.

ah to feel complete again. lightning and thunder is not the same without the rain...

writers block has come back with a vengeance.

it just gets worse...

im not sure about this thing anymore. it's like it's served its purpose...

anything more would just be reiterating the same points. the same fucking "points"...

there is no point.

weekend

was awesome. everyone was awesome.

awesome.

more basketball please

This time coming

hooooooooooooooooooooooooley shit. FUCKING SHIPWRECK. i never ever thought i would ever see these cunts, been one of my favourite bands for like 3 years or some shit...

im afraid.

AND DEN the next fucking morning i am flying to hong kong to be a big time playaaaaa and buy some sweet adidas jumpsuits and adidas shell-toes for cheap... maybe some gold watches (not authentic)...

WHO WANTS TO PLAY SOME C-LO?!?! IM BRINGING A WHOLE SOCK FULL OF MONEYS TO SHIPWRECK

dewd

im tired of people talking of raging, and them being ragers... sediment that gathers during the working week, the hate is still there but the numbness keeps the water still... until the weekend, this music stirs up the monster inside, clouding everything.

i never thought of hurting others, i only want to destroy myself. but im definately not sorry hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahhaa...

the only thing raging about them is their bon0rs for other dudes. or their bon0rs for other girls..

make sense? no?

good.